Tracks

"Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there"

--Will Rogers

To Be...

Holly & Gerry

Holly: All I know is, if you don't figure out this something... you'll just stay ordinary, and it doesn't matter if it's a work of art or a taco, or a pair of socks! Just create something...new, and there it is, and it's you, out in the world, out side of you and you can look at it, or hear it, or read it, or feel it...and you know a little more about...you. A little bit more than anyone else does...does that make any sense at all?

Gerry: Yeah...you're saying that you want to paint socks.

Holly: Maybe!

Self Librarian

I read something today and it really stuck: "I am not a librarian of my own work. It's good not to get too involved with what you have done." I need to start reminding myself to cut myself some slack. I think I'm to critical of everything that I do and I need to be more open to making mistakes, and allowing myself to have them without worrying so much about it. I feel like a release is coming. Maybe of some resentment, anger, bitterness, hope...I'm not totally sure. But, a release of some sort. I set my expectations for this Summer really high. I wanted change, something new and exciting. But maybe my change is no change at all. Maybe it's something I can't see. Maybe it's something I can change on the inside. And I can feel it. I'm so incredibly close and on the verge of an inner breakthrough. I know, it's cheesy but I hope everyone has felt this feeling at some point. The pinnacle of anticipation, the feeling of knowing something--but nothing at all. I just need to remind myself that I make mistakes, and I will make more. And that it's okay. I can learn from them or choose not to. But at the end of the day, I'm not responsible for looking back, only looking forward.

The Runaways

"I know who you are, and I'm not impressed."

--Joan Jett

Marilyn

Lofty Reality

Time to write from me again. I must admit that although my quotes have merit to them and each picture has a thought behind it, sometimes it's good just to speak for myself. Again, it's pretty doubtful that anyone will read this but here I am. Anyways, I'm in the processing of learning something again. I can't really say learned, in the past tense because I feel like it's one of those pesky little life lessons that you're constantly adding to and picking away from. Either way, I'm learning that you can't really set yourself up for something. Not to say that you can't have ambitions or expectations. But those lofty ideas can only reach as far as yourself. You really can't rely on other peoples actions. All you really have is yourself to take care of. And with each day you have to remember that your own happiness is what matters, that reaching for your dreams is important, and you can only expect the best things for yourself. If you fail to do this, you'll be dissapointed. You can't count on the exceptions. They'll never happen when you want them to. Really, all you have to remember is something very simple that people lose somewhere in life: The sun rises and sets with you.

Expectations

Never idealize others. They will never live up to your expectations. Don't over-analyze your relationships. Stop playing games. A growing relationship can be nurtured by genuineness. Expect the best of only yourself.

The Fool In Me

I must learn to love the fool in me. The one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries.

--Theodore Isaac Rubin

Iris

"I understand feeling as small as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many haircuts you get, or how many gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you have wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

--Iris, "The Holiday"

Dusk & Summer

"Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I am going to be happy in it." -Groucho Marx

Smile

"When you finally allow yourself to trust joy and embrace it, you will find you dance with everything." --Emanuel